My sweat was so much I climb on the roof to get air but outside was only still and warm fog. The feel was like sweat two times. In the sick I am so sleep and sore everywhere so I lay on the roof and have the look of Fissure. There are more people here and Sam was say about more people around so ok. Also is that Sam is safe in a home and not sleep in a theater or stink tunnel. Even if that was also fun maybe house is better. I was think how funny when I feel like still a brat inside but also I have a home myself so how can I be brat still. Maybe this is what growups feel like I guess. When I was a brat the growups like Grammy and Marko always seem so old and solid. But now is Sam a growup because I feel more squish than solid. So hard is the thinking sometimes I lay down my head. I hope buzzard leave me alone if I go asleep.
This morning I was look at the Fissure and watch a buzzard in the sky and then I seen my friend Angh. She was walk out by the Fissure and I said hi Angh and she said hi Sam is this your new house. I said it is and if you want to see inside I also have soup. So we go inside and sit on Sam’s new sofa and talk. When I first became here Angh was so nice to Sam and give me cupcakes. It was a good feel to have her in my house.
Angh said Sam I have a house warmer for giving you and it is a plant in pot. I guess I never think about have a plant in my house but I like the green of it so I put on my most good things shelf. I had to make the just so again but it look good after and so nice a gift from Angh. She also give me a nice new shirt that is good for warm times. So friend is Angh.
After Angh said goodbye Sam I was look at my house and seen there was a wall with nothing on that look funny. I member then I found some funny paper in a roll and it was big size so I make it flat on the wall and I think it look better. I don’t know what means Slower Loris but I like the top spelling it is good think. Also with faces on my wall it feel like Sam is not alone at home.
Still so sick with sweat and chill feel so not much make of the house. I make a soup from rat and some root I dig up. It maybe taste good but my sick so I don’t know taste. It is warm. I eat some soup and then go to my top most seat to watch the sun go down on the Fissure. So glamour is my new view. When the sun was down I go to my front door and put my toes in the sand that was warm from all day. Sand has a so good feel then.
I was make more home today besides sick that I won’t spell about. I get a so better sofa yesterday so I make a nice shelf that is good feel with the sofa and put my most good things on. I move things around on the shelf so long the sun goes down and I’m not done. Every good thing should be on a shelf in a way just so is what Grammy said. So I make the good things shelf just so. Just so is important in the home because there is where the life happens and it should be just so. I get the good feel when I work in my house to make just so. I am finding all the time things for make it better. There is lots of so good junk in the world for Sam to collect and make with.
Sometimes Sam is so busy I forget to make the spelling here. Also is the so sick still and my lungs feel like a sack with knives and my head is like sand hippo step on it. Also dizzy cough blood tired but I could spell about sick until forever it is so horrible. So about that is enough.
The sick make me dizzy so I stay put today. The so funny thing was when I eat my last Twonkie that was so yum I look out and seen something I never seen until then. The thing was more like three things and they are big metal box things stuck funny in the sand. It was just so close to the rust place I was in but I guess the so sick made me not see. Maybe three box place is like cake that Sam cooks up only in her head I don’t know. But I go to see and it was so for real.
I lay around a lot so there was time of thinking. It means important to think on a thing before I do it. Sometimes a thing just sound good but then you have it and it was only wanting that was good so I know that. But still if something is in a person heart the need for follow is big and good for them. Grammy used to call those times avestment like when she gave the mean men extra bread it was avestment in protection. So it could be to do a thing that is hard now will be a good thing in the later time. I guess the one thing is I don’t know. But if I don’t try I will just live in a rust place always and die from sick. It is a big decide for Sam today but thing is that way sometimes.
I am in the rust place now forever I guess because sick makes me not move so much. My eyes are stuck and blur so I close them. I don’t know if eyes are open or not when I seen a so good cake and glamour drink too. I look at them a long time and think what taste and good they are but when I reach to get them they go away. It is like pretend time I guess but I believe it too. Maybe spirit of Grammy is bring Sam some good things for being sick. I wisht the cake was in my mouth.
I was think that maybe it was better now some but when I try to run again is the so sick. I had to sleep and I went to the rusty place I found that was close. There I was so sleep and sleep.
The so sick is worser now. I try to go out but only can walk and then not so much very far before I need lay down. I guess it is dumb Sam to sleep in open places but I don’t know another way. Today I crawl into a rusty hide place and when I wake up I got sand bugs in my hair and pants. I don’t think the bugs bite me but still no bugs for Sam please. I was think about some nice place to be safe and live but I don’t know. So much of the world is mean and hard where is the place for Sam I wonder. Some place where ghoul can not eat me when I sleep.
My head was so hot today and I lay down and not move is all. Sometimes I go asleep but I don’t know when it happens or how long sleep is. My sick must be in my head now because I had a so funny dream where everything was all glow and mixed up.
I think what Grammy said sometimes that it is one thing after the nother. I don’t know why all of everything is here if people are so sick and can’t laugh sometimes in happy about it all. My sick makes me think funny too so I don’t know. Grammy is right about one thing after the nother because Sam had trouble from the very day I became here. This morning I tried to go out but didn’t so I rest by where the ooze comes from under the funny rocks and felt so heavy and itch. I stop throwup at least for now but I feel like the bowl that has been poured out.