Just Near Candy

Still again so sick and throwup. I found a sack that was not so filth and made a wrap for my cold head. The sack smelled like onion I think but my nose can’t know for sure because sick. Mostly I lay by the burning stink and try to forget the sick on me. I had some candy from the last time I seen the Trader Man but nothing I eat stays inside so I didn’t want to have candy throwup because that means no candy. So I just put them near to me and watched at them unless my eyes are closed. I dreamed about the doggie with three legs again and he was my friend somehow but then he bite me and not let go. I was trying to shake the doggie teeth from me but I stop dreaming and start throwup.

Forever Maybe

I don’t know is sick forever maybe. So hurting again I wisht Grammy could take care of me like when I was a brat and got the cold. I wasn’t bloody throwup then so maybe even Grammy can’t help poor sick Sam now. Even just spelling this makes me sleep.

Sick Walking

The sick is horrible now. Blood is in throwup and my head is a broken jar of snot. My eyes are blur too and I have to lay down all the time. But the most bad was today when I woke up and seen I was at the Trader’s Camp again. How did I get there I don’t know because only I member getting into the tunnel to sleep yesterday. So sick Sam in her sleep walked all through bad places where hurting happens all the time. And I even don’t know it happened. Because sick.

I only woke up when I hear Tralala say Sam are you hurt. I said Tra I’m so sick and she said me too Sam. She said better get home before ghoul comes to eat Sam sick meat or not so I said I go home. It was so hurt to stand. Tralala had crust eyes so hurt looking I was sad for her. I guess all the sick people are feeling so yuck now. Tralala ran away funny because without her eyes to see. I made blood throwup again and tried to walk away from everything and find a place alone for being sick. My self is so hot and cold too.

The most alone place I know is the broken tower under the bridge where nothing ever goes mostly except Sam. I hope I wake up here and not somewhere far away and bad. I thought about tying me to a big rock so I can’t go walking in my sleep again but then I think no Sam what if the ghoul does come.

So Sick

So ill wind now today. My throat is so hurting and my head feels full and ready to bust. I’m so sleep and I didn’t hardly move for two days. I made some tea from leaves I found and sat by the stink fire mostly today. I tried to eat one of the nice treats my friend Angh gives to me but it bounced out of my belly quick. Alls I can have is tea and bits of yellow mold everything else is throwup right away. Maybe I can go to The Cape tomorrow where also is sick people and see if they know how to make me not sick. But also I might have to just sleep again.

Everyone is Throwup

I was better from the bad hootch after sleeping and eating a Twonkie. Still my eyes were ouch but ok to go around so I went around. I seen the Trader’s Camp had smoke from fires so I thought of bacon and tried to run there but walked mostly. When I got there I seen everyone was looking funny. Tralala was throwup and had yellow mold on her eyes and Apo was sick and bloody in her cough. Other folks were sick too they said and the sick was in The Cape and also some sick on some ghouls too. I was so sorry for all my hurting friends and wondering how to help. Why is everything sick I don’t know. But then I went funny feeling like a cold wind and my throat was itch like sand. Apo got out a big jug of hootch and I guess the smell or the thinking of it made me get throwup on my foot. I was feeling so shy from messing on my foot for everyone there to see and too I was sweat like running but I was sitting. Then everyone had to go so they go and Sam was left feeling funny alone. I walked back to my tunnel and was so sleep I only got to the sticker bushes. I don’t know if hootch is making everything throwup like sick water but maybe this is more than hootch and maybe is an ill wind is what Grammy called it. I hope ill wind blows somewhere away from Sam soon.

Hootch Pains

I think drinking the hootch is so bad. It makes headpains and horrible. Today I feel hurt all over and the light makes me feel ouch in my head. Even birds are too loud. I feel oily and I smell funny like sick. I tried to leave the tunnel but I was throwup so fast I just went back in. I would trade my pretty to feel better. And the so funny part is I don’t member what we even did or how I became at home after. So fuzzy head Sam and all I taste is hootch in my mouth that is make me throwup. I don’t know why Brenda even wanted to drink a hootch if this is how it feels. I wisht Grammy was here to pet my head.

Drinking the Hootch

Just when it was dark I met Brenda by the old tree like was the plan. She was full of vinegar is what Grammy would say because she was jumping and big eyes. She had an old sack with something inside maybe the hootch. Brenda said Sam let’s go drink the hootch now but that was already the plan I know. We walked to the water pit by the big plate and the sky was sparkle and good. Brenda took the hootch bottle from the bag and said here it is Sam. It had spelling on the bottle that said ROT RUM that I thought was so funny because the Rot is the place I like so much. It was hard to make the bottle open but we did and then Brenda held the bottle in the air and danced a funny dance. She didn’t even have the hootch yet. After the dance she took a big drink and then had trouble breathing some. I smelled the hootch and it was maybe like fish but also like sharp. I guess it was time so I drank some of the hootch and it was so burning. I don’t like it when I first drink it but the more drinks the more it was better taste. The hootch makes Sam feel funny too like swimming in waves but when you walk. And my face was fuzzy feeling and my mouth was not talking right. Me and Brenda laughed and laughed at so many things when we drank the hootch and I was tired from laughing and a little throwup too. I don’t know why is the wearing pretty part of the drinking hootch but I like pretty and I like Brenda too. I was so sleep when we walked home I wanted to lay in the road but Brenda said no Sam.

The Plan

It was hot today and I ran everywhere but not much of finding. I was wondering why but then there was Brenda and we both had pretty and I never took mine off yet. Brenda had a sneaky eye and was looking all around for anyone. Then she said Sam tonight we should drink the hootch bottle and I said ok but still I don’t know what it means. Brenda said we need to have a place where we can jump and yell and I said what about the big water pit I know and she said ok. Then Brenda talked very I made up my mind and said that the plan was meet right after dark time and go drinking the hootch in the water pit. I like when me and Brenda have a plan and the hootch.

Pretty For Me

Tonight I seen Brenda when she was sneaking from her papa again. WIlliam must sleep a lot. Brenda was very prance around and full of jumping I don’t know why. She said I made somethings for you Sam and it was things she calls pretty. One of the pretty goes around my neck and is a tooth from something I don’t know maybe a woolly marmot. The nother pretty was for around my head and Brenda said it was just like hers and we can both wear them together when we drink the hootch. I said Brenda what is hootch and she only smiled and was purr and said you will see. I guess if you need pretty to drink the hootch it must be fun and maybe so glamour. I said thank you Brenda and when will we do drinking the hootch and she said maybe in a few days when William has to go away most all day somewhere I don’t know. I’m so glad for my pretty and Brenda too.

Fighting

I went to the place where everyone fights each other in the big metal pit. I don’t know why they do it I guess they like it or something all the blood makes me dizzy. But I guess I like it too because I go to watch but sometimes close my eyes when it is messy. Also I seen some of my friends there and I like to see my friends so I go. Today I saw Apo and Tralala and KittyKat and Psycho and Cloudy and Neo and so many it was a mob. Also I saw my friend Good Kitty Melody who has so glamour spots. She likes to be skritched behind an ear so I did and she was purr. I was thinking maybe Melody knows Brenda but I didn’t want to ask something that was trouble like I do sometimes. Just because they are both kitty don’t mean they know about each other. I wisht I had a tail too.

Hootch

I seen Brenda again today she said she was sneaking away from William again. I said Brenda you are going to be in trouble and she said she doesn't care. Then also she said like a low purr she has a bottle of hootch hidden and that we should drink it. I guess I don’t know what is hootch but it might be fun to drink hootch with Brenda unless it is people juice then yuck.

Brenda Being Bad

I was at the back road where it makes a bridge tonight and I seen Brenda there I was so happy. I said I’m so sorry Brenda for getting you in trouble and she said it is ok Sam and William gets cross at her all the time but she doesn't care. Then Brenda said that she even sneaked away from William tonight when he was sleeping just to go outside because she was tired of the old cave they have. I would never sneak on my papa even if I had one. I guess Brenda is a little bit of bad kitty but I like her so much too. We played hopscotch until she said William might wake up soon so she sneaked back to the cave. I hope we get to play again so soon.